Monday, December 28, 2015

Looking Back, Looking Forward

This past year has been a year of focusing on health.  First, my focus was on loosing weight and getting in shape, and then my focus became fighting breast cancer.  They were, and are, good focuses to have.  I've learned a lot about my body and I look and feel better than I have in a long time - and that's even while dealing with chemo.  Now, however, I need to add to my focus.  I'm still keeping my focus on my health, but it's time for more.

For so long I've let myself become almost stagnant.  I had this idea in my mind about how a good Christian wife should be - the idealized Proverbs 31 woman.  And while I strived to be what I thought that I was supposed to be, it never quite jived with my personality.  I'm not a Suzy Homemaker, making my own cleaners, being super frugal, having the chores done each day kind of a woman.  What I am is funky, and odd, and while I like my house clean, if you look closely, you just might find some dust bunnies.

As I've lost weight and had to buy new clothes, I've allowed my own style to shine through.  Gone are the long denim skirts that are the uniform of some Christians  or even the shapeless pants and big tops.  They've been replaced with skinny jeans and cool accessories.  I enjoy my wardrobe so much more now and have fun with putting it together.  And now it's time to bring that into other areas of my life.

This coming year I want to focus on creating.  Whether that is writing, or scrapbooking, or cooking or putting together an outfit, my focus for this year needs to be creating.  And if that means more dust bunnies, or doing a big clean one day a week instead of chores throughout the week, that's cool too.  I'm aching to do and create and live.  Hopefully it will be an adventure, hopefully it will be fun, and hopefully it is something that I can share with you.